Saying Good-bye

I recently had a friend I was once close to pass away a few days ago. When I got the news I was in the state of shock then my emotions went to guilt. I felt guilty cause I saw him two months before an didn't take the time to stop and talk to him. I didn't take the time after high school to stay close to him. Not that any of that would have altered his future actions, but the thought crossed my mind " What If". Now I wish I had gone on that one date with him all those years ago.

I met him in the 7^th grade, he had a crush on me and I had a crush on his friend, but it wasn't until the moment he told me I was beautiful when we became friends. He put his feelings aside and let me date his friend that was just the kind of guy he was. We became close, he would help me out in my relationships and I would help him in his. He knew just what to say to make me laugh and what to say to make me feel special. In high school we had some what of the same friends but we never had a class together until our senior year Spanish II. He sat behind me and would partner up on class project which was funny considering that we both sucked in Spanish lol....But I still liked being his partner cause he still knew how to make me laugh and smile. Then it was the last day of class and he looked at me and said " I want to tell you something but your going to get mad." I looked at him strange and told him just to come out with it. He looked down on his backpack and said " I still think your beautiful and I like you." I smiled at him and said, " I'm not mad , why would I be mad?" He looked up at me I paused and said," Thank You." That has to be my favorite memory of him cause it came from the heart . But as time went on we didn't stay close.

I hope now he will forgive me but I will not be able to go to his funeral but I will visit his grave. I don't want to remember how he die but the imprint of memories he let behind. I know a lot of people who knew him wishes they could of stopped him that day. But now all we are left with is a "Why?". We will never really truly have that answer and it was nobody's fault. Who knows what was going through his mind that day and I rather not think about it. All I have to say now is Thank you........

Thank you David .....

For all the times you made me laugh with those words "wtf'

Thank you for telling me about the leopard Speedo lol.....that one is implanted in my mind.

Thank you for always thinking I was beautiful , it was nice knowing through the years you looked at me in that special light.

Thank you for sharing things with me and trusting me in that moment in time.

Thanks for being my Friend.

Thank you for everything else in between

Thank you for it all.......

I only hope now he has found his peace . We never really know what kind of role a person plays in our lives even only it was a moment in time until they are gone. I could only appreciate my friends now and how much I care about them. And it don't matter if I had not talked to them in a while all that seems to go away. And if they are ever depressed I would only hope they would come to me and I will listen or to anybody who cares and take the time to listen before it comes to a situation like this. Take care of your loved ones and think of those who have left a print in your life.